Mother. Wife. Daughter. Sister.
Zena, warrior goddess of the internet. Blogger.
This is me. This is who I am.
I can’t imagine not having any of these facets to my life – they are all rewarding (and challenging, it’s ok to say it, mom.)
But it was not until of late that I really said “I am a blogger” and meant it as something more than “yeah, I write this little blog”. It was only recently – when finding the time and focus to write became more of a challenge – that I realized how much I need this little corner of the internet.
Blogging has taught me how to keep things in perspective. I am, no surprise to those who know me, extremely hard on myself. I discovered very early on in blogging that it is in the recounting of a situation or state of mind and being able to present it in a way that finds the humor in the situation that allows me to take a step back and put things in balance. It lets me laugh at myself, or the situation, and deal.
Blogging taught me that I do have a voice. Being a stay-at-home-mom, can, in many ways, be a very solitary experience. After leaving a high stress job in client relations that required long hours and a high degree of daily client interaction, quite often it was easy to feel unimportant and unacknowledged. Writing on the blog gave me a place to write about frustrations that seemed to be mine alone, and via responses I have received both on the blog and on Facebook, I received the acknowledgement that I was heard. Posting also allowed me to share my knowledge with others. Blogging lets me be heard, whether what I have to say is of deep meaning, or just meant to make you
Through blogging, I learned that I want to write. “Duh”, you’re probably thinking at home. Well, now that I’m a mom of school aged children reaching a point where I could go back to work if I wanted, I’ve been riding on the “What do I want to be when I Grow Up” carousel. And blogging has let me come to the realization that what I really want to do is WRITE. For publication. For the blog. Just write. Grow the blog and see where it might lead professionally.
Through blogging, I discovered that I really do like attention. I am, by nature, also very self-conscious. One on one, I do great, once I get past my nerves, but if I had to get up in front of a crowd of people, I’d either wet myself or pass out cold. Blogging gives me the affirmation, the attention and what-have-you that I don’t think I could comfortable get either way. Yes, I love comments…
Next month, Blog Elevated is being held in Houston, and its aim is to take blogs to the next level, be it by using social media more efficiently, sparking inspiration, growing professionally, or finding your authentic voice.
As I started blogging in 2008 before SEO was a catchword, have to admit that I’m still a bit clueless in how to make it work for me. I also need to learn how to better use social media, particularly Pinterest and Instagram, to my own advantage (instead of just losing hours happily pinning projects I may never get to), and approach Google+ without breaking out in hives (I still don’t GET it.) I also want to continue to improve my writing.
This year, I celebrated :quietly: my five-year “blogoversary”. Five years! Who could imagine? What started out as a means to keep my far-flung family in the loop with my new little family has grown into so much more. It is a creative outlet, my passion, and has brought me into a bigger community of people who share my passion and sense of fun.
2013 has been a crazy year. I moved back to the US after living in the UK for four years, but have been biding time, really, in corporate housing while we waited for our tenants’ lease of our home to end. I have been out of sorts, out of my element (gone is my “American in Wales” perspective in my writing), and trying to find my place. Getting back into the house has meant repairs, repairs, and more repairs, which in turn means distractions and frustrations. With school starting next week, I’m using the return to a schedule (if not normalcy) as the impetus to get my blog back on track, but I could use a little help.
I’m hoping that Blog Elevated can keep me on the path I want to follow, and I’m grateful for the chance to win a scholarship to attend!